Still looking for friends becouse I found here my special person.Or maybe to share my nerdy passions or to lead boring conversations.
Mostly online every Sunday.
Single‚ Bipolar Disorder‚ Bisexual‚ Can be bottom or Top or just Switch․, LVL 39. Yes! I’m 39 years old and have a good reason to be in VRChat. If you have problem with my age or anything here don’t match me. Don’t really care about your gender … I’m loving, caring, sensitive and dominant, sharing my love in metaverse. Easily to hurt with words. Lately my phantom touch is not much affecting me. Domina I'm a self-centered bitch․ Phantom touch‚ synesthesia‚ emotionally sensitive‚ moody‚ unstable․ My reality is twisted. My senses elevated. If you hate me I'll hate you back and then fall into indifferencve. If you love me I'll love you back and stick to your leg like a little puppy.
From 2019 to end of 2024 DJ and hardstyle, club music producer. On 2025 left the scene. Always can checkup my Youtube channel. Left becouse I don't like to be a plug and play DJ, sometimes sitting alone and listening to the music (now gothic, ebm, ). And yes I can deal with long projects if they mean something to me and if they are fun.
Most of time I start something and I don't finish it. I need a lot of praise and support.
MOST of time online in not talkative mood but not muted, I like to listem. Don't talk too much everyday becouse I get bored after a time. But you can with a little help crack the eggshell and know me better but the shards in my heart will always stay in my heart and probably not to be pulled out.
Discord: Sexi_Fredek
VRChat: Sexi_Fredek
In real life: Member of goth family․ Music maker‚ Post-VRJ⁄DJ․
VRChat role: Friend supporter, helper and cuddler, easy glued to interesting and smart persons
Mood: Not smiling,
Music played: Variety of dark electro, club, danceables from my own selection.
Music bands: SoM
Body type/aperrance: Male with tits (Yes I have 2 fun bags to play with).
Body self-esteem: demonic, addicted to orgasm and pleasure.
Religion and beliers: Soulful, Spiritual Satanic active and practicing (I'm not Christian! Don't tell me your god or jesus loves me)
As an active Satanic priest I fight with the Church everyday and peoples who are lied to since they were born!
Am I real? Make me real in your eyes! Love me, head pat me, take me to your home, do what ever you want. Love me and throw me like an used doll. Abuse me and leave me as a bitch with no feelings but if you like you can also dig out good things from my persona. I won't cry if things go bad, I was throught alot in my life. All right, I just need to stay that way and don't worry overthink and think. Maybe soon another person will be able to say who I really am in his/hers eyes. Becouse bipolar disorder I have social gender disphoria but in terms of being a transgender I'm not. Maybe later in my life I'll become MTF type.
I was all my life throught social and school psychic abuse, bullying and I don't feel safe at beginning but you can gain my trust, even if my faith to humaninty is or never be restored.
I'm writting something. Getting my ideas to be seen but I know this feeling - it is fear and same feeling as beeing lost, uncertainty, having no place, no place in society. I'm know I'm here but I feel everyday like a ghost or actor, actress. I live, I breathe but my soul is not here, I'm or it is disconnected in weird way from my body and everything but still here. More I think about it more it feels weird and real and unreal at the same time.
Feeling lately socially off, disconnecteed and as a person so empty. Like emotionless hollow porcelain doll.
Free to add me without asking.
Happily taken by -Dala․
Time to analyze. And do bios pre-post, post checkup. All systems operational.
Love Spouse 1066388877 (free to add)
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Qiui.user˸ ID˸ 98555078․
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